Right from our childhood we have had people- by that I mean people who think themselves to be worthy of giving advice to others and never once listen to what others say- or in other words Adults as they are only by age telling us repeatedly that one learns from his mistakes. When I started to see cricket, they told me "Sachin learns from his mistakes, if he is outsmarted by a ball once it will never happen again" and recently there has been this story going on in the web about Sachin and Brad Hogg, how Hogg is struggling to take a wicket of Sachin once again. Then when I wanted to learn Chess, they again said this "Anand learns from his mistakes too". Then I wondered whether they wanted me to learn these sports or that phrase " Learn from your mistakes" and for the record I have not learnt anything from my mistakes in these two sports "I duck in cricket and suck in Chess" :P. But the biggest wonder is that I play football and no one ever told me that I would learn from my mistakes there and I keep committing the mistakes that I did the very first time, the reason why I am good at Football is that I commit mistakes and have improved so that others don't see it.The real reason I talked about all these learn from one's mistake is that I have never learnt from my mistakes. When thinking about the past, I know I have done three big blunders and I realize that they are the biggest mistakes I always make and yet I forget about not to commit them again. Starting from my childhood. These three mistakes come in an orderly manner and namely are
1. Lying about something to someone.
2. Not keeping up to that lie so that the other person finds it out.
3. Even if the other person does not find it I tell the truth and confess.
One might argue with me that these are a persons choice to remain truthful and how these can be classified as mistakes, but I do because the fruits that I reaped from any of these three steps were never tasty. Though I might console myself stating that the longer the duration between Step 1 and Step 2/3 the longer my happiness, but the hard part is that even when you are in between Step 1 and 2, you live with the fear that all three come in a package and the day is nearing. Also in the regard, the sooner the truth is found/confessed the lesser the number of broomsticks that are broken.
I realized that these three always come in a package during my school days, to be precise during the Quarterly, half yearly, Annual exams. Lets see how this cycle even started in my life:
I came to know the fact that they conduct exams to estimate your performance with regards to the class thrice a year and only if you pass the third exam(Annual exam) you'll be able to proceed to the next class during my 2nd grade only. But back then they never questioned me in my home on how I did my exams. But they started to, when I came near to my 5th grade and was ready to go to high school. During my 5th standard Quartely exam they asked me how I did my exams and I said I did not do them well. The result I was made to read all the quarterly portions again and again during the 10 days holidays. I felt very bad when my friends were playing and I was made to read the books again and again.
Next came the Half-Yearly exams, this time I was determined to enjoy my holidays. The question was repeated " How did you do you exams " the grades I knew were going to be worse than quarterly exams, but I had 10 days of enjoyment ahead of me so I said " Superb, awesomatically I will get 90+ in all subjects ". My parents wondered about the sudden change and were happy their kid has learnt from his mistake. but they dint realize that not studying was not the mistake I made :P. There, that's the first instance this loop started and it continues till date.
Eventually the results shall be announced one day and I would get crackers on my back then a 10% bonus for lying and I would say " I did well, the teacher did not correct properly" or " A sheet must have fallen down from the answer paper" and all these did not save me. This does not end only with the exams but also for my homeworks. If I had an important wrestling match to watch on TV I would say that I completed my homework and come to watch TV and then next day my homework diary would read "Incomplete" and a routine 10% bonus crackers on my back. This did not stop with my parents, when I found out the root cause for these were the teacher, so I started to lie to her too about how the power went off when I started my homework and that my parents did not allow me to do the homework sitting outside afraid of the fact that I might get bitten by mosquitoes and get dengue/malaria. I then thought that the three mistakes need not come in a loop if I found an effective way to lie. But that dint happen too, in the next PT meet the teacher advised my parents to buy a pack of candles and while I was laughing at why she was talking useless stuff like that , she said that malaria story and then all my laughter stopped and I knew it was time for a 200% bonus. Till date I keep trying different combinations of lies to find out only how imaginative I am and that these don't work well in reality. But the one thing I got out of these is a creative mind and a happy one. To laugh at my own mistakes, not many get those chances. The lies don't stop with parents or teachers it is almost to anyone I meet, I have given them a certain amount of BS.
This has always been an enjoyable ride for me, stating a lie and getting caught for that. But why have I even mentioned these as mistakes is that these have made me to look as a not so credible person. And the suspicion has not ended with what I say but also what I write or it arises a question who writes :P.. recently there have been quiet a good deal of suspicion that I am outsourcing this blog. And how can I even counter argue that??!! I don't know. But what I can come to believe is that " A person must learn from his mistakes or else he is most likely to suffer from consistency to committing mistakes" .Thus we can conclude
" Keep telling lies but never get caught or dont even dream of confessing"
- Happy lying :) your blogger
